This is it - the last two topics of the July "I Believe" Challenge. I've been working on a post in my head summing up my experience with this every day blogging challenge, but first I need to actually finish it.
RC: Why am I bothering with this?
Self: Because writing out what I believe is more important than you know.
RC: Nobody wants to hear this stuff and if I write down what I really believe people might think I'm just a little on the weird and crazy side.
Self: Really? Do you think that when you read what others write, when it resonates deep in your soul?
RC: No, of course not. You know that those words move me to tears, although I often try to mask them or distract myself instead of sinking into them deeply and really feeling them.
Self: I've noticed. I wonder why you do that. Do you not realize that right there, in that depth of feeling, is the place you most need to be - the place where I am?
RC: Yes, I know. But I'm afraid to get too close to you, or to show too much of you to the world.
Self: Why? Why are you afraid of me? I love with the deepest love. I want the best for you. I dream big dreams.
RC: I know that too. The dreams are so big. I want to dream them too, but I am afraid. Because I know I'm the one who will have to do the work of living those dreams. What if the price is too high? What if I'm not capable? What if I try and fail? What if I succeed?
Self: So many "what ifs". Trust me. Let go of the fear. Dream the dreams. Walk the path unfolding before you. Live and love and laugh and change the world - one step at a time. I'm right here with you. You are never ever alone.